Day 16 ~ A song that makes you cry

*Warning: this is lengthy and emotionally heavy... read at your own risk!*


There are a couple of songs that bring me to... or nearly to, tears.

The first one I referenced the first day as one of my favorites. Yes a fav song can still move me so much. It's Glory Baby by Watermark. I clung to this song after our 15week miscarriage (and subsequent 6 week one too). The whole song is just exactly what anyone who has lost a little one to infant death or miscarriage can relate to... every word! I think, though, that the line that first caught my attention (read - instant tears) was "But baby let sweet Jesus hold you ‘till mom and dad can hold you…"

Glory Baby

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

The other song that will get me now also stems from that miscarriage experience. I was one that I thought of while Steve and I were in the ER that night. We were just sitting there (well I was lying there), I am bleeding profusely and I've got an IV of fluid and potassium, and this song title just pops into my head (how awesome that God will do that!). So I ask Steve if he remembers the words to the song "It is well with my Soul" ... though a bit of stumbling and calling his mom (who has hymnals and a computer...) we get the words and have our own little hymn sing there in the ER

It Is Well with My Soul

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to know,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.

But Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

I had probably heard it a bit growing up, but didn't remember much, so I was surprised (and yet...) that it came to mind. It was only afterwords that I learned what the author of the song, Horatio Spafford, went through. Loss of his son, his business, his three daughters, all in a matter of a couple of years.

We knew Corine had a problem, but that didn't lessen our desire for that child; and yet there was a peace I felt about her passing that is conveyed in this song. Horatio did go on to have more children and founded a mission group serving the poor in Jerusalem. ...and yes we now have Holly :)

Day 15 ~ your dream house

I think I may have to ask Steve about this one too :)

I know that our dream home...

...has a fireplace (or two)
...has enough rooms for all three girls, a play room and some extra rooms for guests and/or a child/ren to adopt (dream big, right!?)
...has a sit in bay window (or two)
... is probably more than one story
...is in Arizona (another big dream!)
the following are from Steve:
...has a three car car garage
...has a dumb-waiter/ laundry shoot
...has a green house
...is as self efficient as possible... (the green house and fireplace included) and windmill/ solar panels, maybe a well

I have to say that I like this one, though

Day 14 ~ A non-fiction book

It's been a L..O..N..G time since I've read a non-fiction book that had more than 20 pages (Bible not included!)! But last year after we were in my cousin's wedding, we received a package form my Aunt Nancy with a couple of books and a fishing net. The book (two of the same one) was written by a lady that owns a lobstering boat and works it by herself half the year, she is called ( and the book is titled) "Lobster Lady."

OK so if that weren't cool enough... Aunt Nancy sent a note in with the box that says that she met the Lobster Lady! The LL also signed each of the books, one to Faith and one to Megan (spelled wrong...), and Nancy was able to make a bit of fishing net while there. Pretty cool and it makes me wish we'd had more time last year to spend in Mystic, CT... but school and work and our own beds called, oh well.

it's a neat tale if you ever get a chance to read it!

Day 13 ~ A fictional book

So the first fictional book/s that comes to mind is/are a/couple of family favorites

and

both great books!

Day 12 ~ something you are OCD about

I actually had to ask Steve about this one... I think it has to do with I don't really notice what I obsess about, but he came up with two of these right off the bat. Love him!

Haha, we have a little joke between the hubby and I that it isn't OCD ...it's CDO... you know everything in alphabetical order... well actually I have relaxed some about it since having kids, but I used to alphabetize EVERYTHING. It sure does make it easier to find some things though :)

I thought that was about the only thing that I am really bad about...

I was reminded, though, that I have to have my (hot) food HOT. To me, I just want my dinner at the temp it was supposed to be at, not the temp it has cooled down to after I got the ranch out for the carrots and nursed the baby and changed the baby's diaper and... and... and... The old adage of "mom hasn't had a hot meal since ____" is SO true. By golly I want my dinner the way it was intended!

I was also reminded that I insist on the girls' clothing matching (not each other, but their shirt has to match [or at least not clash] with their pants). Yes, I let them pick out what they are going to wear... to an extent... but there have been days where poor Megan has changed a few times because the pair of pants she just has to wear only match two shirts... but she has worn them the last two days and they are in the laundry... but she wants to wear these pants... sigh, I just want my children to look nice.

as a side note... I remember being told a number of times that there was an 'outfit' that I wanted to wear SO badly once that clashed with itself (if I recall, it was a pair of RED socks with a PURPLE skirt LOL)... I think I was stubborn enough to wear what I wanted, but looked perty funny. Maybe this is where I get this obsession, I don't want my kids embarrassed like I was...